August 31st, 2022

Its been awhile since I have written in this book and A LOT has changed in me. I no longer am who I was in April when I last wrote in this book. I love you all very much and Im not yet excited to be here on earth right now. I have a lot of changes that were meant to happen, that are not happening for a year or two. I guess that means it give me more time to write in this book. Everyone look around. The earth is stagnant right now. Really it is. Nothing new is happening on either front of the planet. The evil forces and good angels were at war with one another, but now there is a halt right now. No one can change anything on the planet until I get the things that I need. One, I need a new job for sure. I should be teaching right now about the end times and what needs to get done to win this war. And yes, it is a war. A war between good and evil. The last battle for sure and good is for sure going to win. That’s in the bucket and cant be changed. In order to win though, we have to go through this war that God designed so that we could win. Since Im not really moving forward right now and am sort of stuck, God is no longer allowing anyone to fight. Its at a standstill. This might seem odd to you that its at a standstill just because Im not teaching right now. Look at it this way. If the antichrist was not coming soon, then there would also be a standstill. Its like each side is raising the flag for more time. This battle is HUGE and every planet in this galaxy is a part of the process. My best friend God who I have mentioned before that we are best friends, has warned me that times are not changing right now. There are certain angels on this planet that are not stepping forward to give me the money I need or the influencers that I need to make it through all this. I was already supposed to have moved and enjoying my new house and life. None of this is happening anytime soon. Its actually rather sad for God and I. We wanted so much a new life for me that I could be super happy. I love life here on earth now, but that’s because I have to. If nothing is going to change, then I am going to write a book every day and have this as my outlet. I have much more to say, but deciding if this is the right time to say any of it. I do want to say that I am proud of all of you that have come this far in reading my book or journal so to speak. Im happy to have readers at last as this will sit for awhile before any human ever reads its going forward. Erdem read it and believed. So cool! He knows that I am special. Let me tell you why my life has been so hard. I put obstacles in my path that generally wouldn’t have been there. Behind the scenes, I had to beg my frist boyfriend Alex for 3 months to break up with me. He wanted to stay with me forever and get married and have kids. I really really wanted that too with him. We got along so well and really enjoyed each others company, but I needed to grow and grow super fast in my spirituality as a being of this universe. I needed to think he really wanted to break up with me to go through the trials where I had to suffer so I could grow. That’s how it works on this planet. Hardship produces growth. I sometimes wish I could have had the easy life like all my friends. Seriously all my friends I grew up with have spouses and children and houses and cars and good jobs. I just have a good job. The single life can be very lonely and again that has made me much stronger. I wont go into more detail right now about how I knowingly sabotaged my life so I could become the person I am today. I still have my fibromyalgia which drives me nuts. It causes me to be sore all the time and gives me extreme limitations of what I can do with my body. I get fatigued a lot and have to take naps during the day. My friend Van is working on me and he still has quite of bit of work to do. He thinks its all caused from trauma and he is wrong. My body just got way too stressed in my late 20’s and now its on pain autopilot. I try to tell him things about me and what is really happening but he argues with me. No one is ready and that saddens me. Even the one person that stepped out of nowhere to help me doesn’t believe in all the things that I say. Wow will he be surprised when he finds out it’s all true and he has gotten things wrong along the way. He does help me lower my pain, but its frustrating being around someone who doesn’t believe in me. He thinks he is more special than me, but that couldn’t be further from the truth. Again, I need to stay focused. Its not about Van, its about all the other followers to come forward and they wont. They are too scared of what I will think even though I will instantly believe them. When Van emailed me out of the blue and said Archangel Michael moves his hands and he gives an energy healing on the body, I knew I knew him. I remembered us in heaven hanging out. He likes to talk about spiritual things too, but on earth its just so different. Even my current boyfriend knows absolutely nothing about me. He is an angel too, but lives really far into this dense planet. He doesn’t go to church and he doesn’t believe in my energy healing. This sucks, but it is what it is. Its frustrating that no one is remembering what we planned before we came to earth. We planned to all find each other and hunt down these evil spirits and crush them. Well we cant do that if everyone is just living in the mundane world now can we. Humpf. Im just releasing a lot of irritation of what is going on here and with me. I think it will help you to hear the truth about everything. I want to share the truth and in turn, heal you so you can become a warrior. Its no joke about what is happening. We are at the end of this planet and the antichrist is going to fight me to the core to win. I will WIN. There is no doubt about that. Happier times will come after. I guess in the meantime, try to get your life straightened out and please try to move into the next dimension with me.